808. Old Pattern Recognition, App Stuff

Recorded on: Sunday, January 4, 2026

Episode Summary by AI

I reflect on a low work day spent cleaning with Lexi and handling laundry at my mom’s house. I worked briefly on app interface details and questioned the urgency of outside testing. Not working hurts my mental state because it feels like lost progress toward my future. I mention a small bonus from Mina and ongoing frustration with inconsistent pay timing. I recognize an old pattern where minor annoyances trigger mental disengagement and note awareness without acting on it.

Notable Quotes From This Episode, by AI

• “I think days like today where I don't work at all, I feel the worst mentally because what am I doing?”
• “When I don't work, I don't feel like I'm getting closer to that whatsoever.”
• “Pretty cool, because I'm able to recognize that within myself.”

Funny, Out of Context Quotes, by AI

• “I have nothing to say to be honest.”
• “So Lexi and I got pizza and we went to my mom's, shared the pizza, and it was fun.”
• “All right, bye. Beach.”

My Thoughts & Feelings for Today - Summarized by AI

I feel restless and annoyed with myself when I slow down. I know progress matters to my future and not working eats at me mentally. Small inefficiencies bother me more than they should and I can feel old shutdown patterns trying to resurface. At least I am aware of them now and not acting on impulse. I still value the work, the people involved, and the direction I am moving.

What I Did Today - Summarized by AI

Cleaned the apartment with Lexi, handled laundry at my mom’s house, worked briefly on app interface details, reflected on testing urgency, responded to work messages, noticed personal mental patterns

Business Revenue Tracker (Since 12/20/24)

Income Today: +$0

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